Like many women in their 30’s, I struggle with my weight. Mainly, losing it.
The story isn’t new, it’s the same story as everyone ever who has struggled with their weight. I’ve tried every diet. I hate exercise. I’m just not capable of losing weight.
Blah blah blah.
I recently realized that I’ve spent decades feeding myself this bullshit as well as feeding myself too many calories every day.
I’ve been reading this book for the past few weeks and learning to recognize that inner voice that manages to convince me, day after day, to eat another piece of chocolate, toss another pat of butter in the pan, and order a pizza for dinner instead of cooking.
“You deserve it. You work really hard. It’s just a little. You can get back on track tomorrow. You need to enjoy life. You can just take an extra long walk tomorrow.”
On and on, these are the things that voice tells me daily. Maybe your voice tells them to you too?
I’m learning that this voice isn’t rational, it isn’t smart, and it certainly doesn’t have my best interests in mind. This voice is the voice of a terrible habit, coming from my instinctual brain. And habits are breakable. Habits can change.
Each day I’m learning to ignore that voice. To see it for what it is. To stop letting it make every decision.
It will keep telling me to open up and I’ll keep shutting it down.